Being Real Honest. Body Peace.

Hey Readers! Haven't checked in what seems like forever; but I promise nothing has changed about me only my age (haha). I recently just turned 25, and so I've been doing some thinking about my Life, Goals and future Career the basics. Even though I'm not fully where I wish to be right-now I'm still in a good position, but now more than ever I just wish that I felt more fuller and by that I mean gain weight. Gaining weight is mainly half of my personal goals that I listed for myself that I set pretty much every year. For most of my life I've weight the same! No fluke guys I mean like I truly stayed at 98 for years. I have the biggest high metabolism which causes me to literally burn though weight like boiled water on the stove, so yeah it's real.  The best breakthrough with gaining weight was last year out of nowhere I picked up weight and went to 103 without knowing and next thing I knew it vanished like poof.  This quick metabolism is hilarious. Even though people tell me "You should be lucky!" or "I wish I had that" Uh ya sure? and the popular saying "you'll gain just eat more". Like I don't 5 times my serving of meat and cake?  Cmon Son.. I can eat the whole refrigerator and only see 2 pounds. At 25 personally, in my head I had this goal set to be a different number... . I guess I'm just so tired of being the "tiny" one. Sick of being seen as a Kid, or a middle schooler, when actually I'm an adult!! Reality is My body needs a change. This is How I feel Right now. Any girl/ young woman that is going through this quick metabolism life knows exactly what I'm feeling, it's a challenge by far to gain weight, nobody can fully understand it but the person that is in and knowing that I can speak about it in a way of release without any sting of emotion is a largely funny situation & it feels good. FYI There Is not a  hint of sadness while I'm writing this at all, so if you're reading thinking I'm writing this as a petty party starter think again! (Smiles)  I've been tiny all most of my life, so now I'm like "Body do your thing lets get it together boo! Succeed and thrive baby" (laughs) But you know I do thank God that I'm perfectly healthy, I'm naturally thin and my body isn't sick or rejecting food, It's working fine, I'm mentally strong and great!  I'm strong in all areas, I'm happy, personally I crave this body change for myself and only for myself.  I call this awaking Body peace: and this peace is something that I've had with myself for years,knowing and understanding how my body works, knowing how naturally thin I am and being being at peace with that also knowing nothing is horrifically wrong just food for me takes time to show up. Real talk you'd be surprised how many others are dealing with this and they don't have peace within themselves and they driven themselves crazy over it. Weight gain for me It's a process that I have to trust, am I trusting but you know how people workout to a better them I want a better me pass 98 pounds. Growing up I now know the meaning of "I just want this for myself".  Being a Stylist, I can wear clothing that accentuates my good fit tiny body and I look perfectly fine, but It's just weird that the lady at the food sample table in Publix ask to see my mother because she doesn't want to give a food tester to me because I could be allergic, and I need parental supervision!  A 25 year old needs parental guidance to try food.  The pure disrespect. (laughs)  Situations happen like that all the time to me.  Really Can I at least go to a size 3. Continuing on.. don't mistake my venting for not loving my body because I completely Love my body, God did a great job, but I just want some extra features the natural way and personally it's been eating at me just more than usual. No I'm not insecure at all trust me I'm the most confident person you'll ever meet 5'0 ft and all. I am embracing my body for what it is, but why should I keep myself to a period, when I can push it to a comma? You see what I mean?! (laughs) No I'm not defined by a scale number, or what a person view me as a child because what I am appearing by size to be, but I just want to feel whole and not so light. I can careless about what other woman look like in magazines or television, or instagram, like that stuff is falsified garbage. This is me just wanting to feel good for me. Really When I get into a relationship with my future boyfriend I don't want to look like little girl, hello I am a woman! A grown woman I want to not only feel like it mentally on the inside, but I truly want look like it. That's all I want. Readers If you have the same Issue that I am dealing let me know! Comment and tell me.

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