Hey Readers! Haven't checked in what seems like forever; but I promise nothing has changed about me only my age (haha). I recently just turned 25, and so I've been doing some thinking about my Life, Goals and future Career the basics. Even though I'm not fully where I wish to be right-now I'm still in a good position, but now more than ever I just wish that I felt more fuller and by that I mean gain weight. Gaining weight is mainly half of my personal goals that I listed for myself that I set pretty much every year. For most of my life I've weight the same! No fluke guys I mean like I truly stayed at 98 for years. I have the biggest high metabolism which causes me to literally burn though weight like boiled water on the stove, so yeah it's real.  The best breakthrough with gaining weight was last year out of nowhere I picked up weight and went to 103 without knowing and next thing I knew it vanished like poof.  This quick metabolism is hilarious. Even though people tell me "You should be lucky!" or "I wish I had that" Uh ya sure? and the popular saying "you'll gain just eat more". Like I don't 5 times my serving of meat and cake?  Cmon Son.. I can eat the whole refrigerator and only see 2 pounds. At 25 personally, in my head I had this goal set to be a different number... . I guess I'm just so tired of being the "tiny" one. Sick of being seen as a Kid, or a middle schooler, when actually I'm an adult!! Reality is My body needs a change. This is How I feel Right now. Any girl/ young woman that is going through this quick metabolism life knows exactly what I'm feeling, it's a challenge by far to gain weight, nobody can fully understand it but the person that is in and knowing that I can speak about it in a way of release without any sting of emotion is a largely funny situation & it feels good. FYI There Is not a  hint of sadness while I'm writing this at all, so if you're reading thinking I'm writing this as a petty party starter think again! (Smiles)  I've been tiny all most of my life, so now I'm like "Body do your thing lets get it together boo! Succeed and thrive baby" (laughs) But you know I do thank God that I'm perfectly healthy, I'm naturally thin and my body isn't sick or rejecting food, It's working fine, I'm mentally strong and great!  I'm strong in all areas, I'm happy, personally I crave this body change for myself and only for myself.  I call this awaking Body peace: and this peace is something that I've had with myself for years,knowing and understanding how my body works, knowing how naturally thin I am and being being at peace with that also knowing nothing is horrifically wrong just food for me takes time to show up. Real talk you'd be surprised how many others are dealing with this and they don't have peace within themselves and they driven themselves crazy over it. Weight gain for me It's a process that I have to trust, am I trusting but you know how people workout to a better them I want a better me pass 98 pounds. Growing up I now know the meaning of "I just want this for myself".  Being a Stylist, I can wear clothing that accentuates my good fit tiny body and I look perfectly fine, but It's just weird that the lady at the food sample table in Publix ask to see my mother because she doesn't want to give a food tester to me because I could be allergic, and I need parental supervision!  A 25 year old needs parental guidance to try food.  The pure disrespect. (laughs)  Situations happen like that all the time to me.  Really Can I at least go to a size 3. Continuing on.. don't mistake my venting for not loving my body because I completely Love my body, God did a great job, but I just want some extra features the natural way and personally it's been eating at me just more than usual. No I'm not insecure at all trust me I'm the most confident person you'll ever meet 5'0 ft and all. I am embracing my body for what it is, but why should I keep myself to a period, when I can push it to a comma? You see what I mean?! (laughs) No I'm not defined by a scale number, or what a person view me as a child because what I am appearing by size to be, but I just want to feel whole and not so light. I can careless about what other woman look like in magazines or television, or instagram, like that stuff is falsified garbage. This is me just wanting to feel good for me. Really When I get into a relationship with my future boyfriend I don't want to look like little girl, hello I am a woman! A grown woman I want to not only feel like it mentally on the inside, but I truly want look like it. That's all I want. Readers If you have the same Issue that I am dealing let me know! Comment and tell me.

Remember, Miracle Loves You.

Have  you ever made yourself a promise to live a life that you dreamed of? Or to be your own boss, or whoever you want to be in life? Don't disappoint you! You go for your goal. Run after you dreams. If you lose sight of your goals by helping someone else achieve theirs and you're watching, still trying? Let it go and chase after your what's inside of you.  I have this goal and promise I made to myself and yes sometimes it gets hard, but I know if I keep going I'll have what I dream about. But sometimes it gets so hard and tiring that I second guess my own goals in life and even wonder if it's even worth it. Nothing worth having comes easy. You have to pay for the life you want. And I tell myself it's so worth it. I can't stop nor will I stop because giving up is never an opinion! Starting a career or life on your own that you dream about is the most toughest thing to do, but once you achieve everything you said you would do that's the best prize you can win. You just have to keep pushing towards your goals one day at a time. Even at times it feels like there's no type of way? There is another way. It's so many ways to get to your goals. Think in ways that will get you there. It's so important to keep your mind clear and open going for a dream. It's easy to get distracted by what's going on around you, it's even easier to say "you know what!? I give up!" But don't. Face the challenge head on. Be a trailblazer in your own life! Conquer everything standing in your way. If it's getting harder.. Remember your goal is around the corner. Thrive to get it.
No things aren't as easy as you think, the harder the road the bigger the prize. Yes you may start to lose focus and slack up, but you see others living their dreams.  I'm going to tell you this piece of inspiration. Stop looking. Start doing. Believe in yourself, don't doubt yourself. If God gave you a dream trust that he's going to give you the push to make your dream come to life. Success comes to those who continue to work pass a "No" or "Sorry next time". If you have a fire inside of you that burns beyond a negative you will have your success, don't let you down by anything or anyone. Surround yourself with those who encourage you, pray for you and believe in you! Remember your dreams comes from God. If God gives it you? God will bring it you... He's just waiting on you to put some feet to your dreams. Keep in mind if it can happen for another person, it can happen for you. The only thing that's between a dream and reality is the work. #GoGetItGirl